i’m in my room and just heard my host mom get home from a pretty long trip and i know that if i leave the room, i will feel obligated to have a conversation with her, but i just want to brush my teeth and go to sleep
―Alex Vance considers the problem of the Not-Writer, a fine addition to our ongoing archive on writing. (via karavanderbijl)
so this is something that I deal with on a daily basis and this represents a line of thinking that often goes through my head. but it’s all well and good to talk about “tough love” and not take mental health into consideration. my anxiety will get to a point where looking at blank pieces of paper makes me feel physically sick, and this takes on a different dimension when writing isn’t just something you do in order to produce work, but something that you have to do in order to maintain mental health. for many people, the vicious spiral has nothing to do with laziness and to imply that it does is a relatively disgusting expression of privilege.
WOW that is the last time i ever fool myself into thinking a guy could be interested in me